A Frustrated Rambler's Ramblings

Ok! So I'm frustrated again. I woke up at 8am and got a cup of bournvita. Then I started my misadventures with Robert M. Solow. Within an hour, his model sent me to sleep. My brother kept humming Hall of Fame behind me. I wanted to concentrate. I wanted to read one more para before my eyelids dropped shut. His lullaby was getting more and more bothersome. I thought of plugging in my own earphones and playing A Nova Vida. But that would lull me off to sleep as well. Then came mom's call. The food was ready. N my bournvita was still wondering how long my oesophagus is. Never mind, I sat at the table. The first item was a bittergourd mixture. That was okay. Except the dish didn't seem to end. I squished some lemon into it. It started tasting pallid now. I complained. Bro mocked, which is quite usual actually. Mom joined in. This pisses me off all the time. I said so. That pissed mom off. Net result, i pushed the plate away and went into my room to sulk. I went back after sometime. My plan was, I'll eat the next item on the menu. Mom drove me away. I said I won't eat the whole day. Now I am thinking..its a thursday. Maths tution in the afternoon. One and a half hours journey by bus. That too, all alone. If I dont eat, I may black out today. I know how hungry I get after class. I was supposed to finish off with Mr. Solow two days ago. And I am still stuck with him. Last night, I planned I'll finish the macroeconomics syllabus today in the morning. And I am sitting here writing rubbish. Ok, lying down on the bed writing rubbish actually. There has been not a single good morning text since morning, which does not make it a good morning. I tried to continue with last night's Bengali poems - the ones I had penned down. The words aren't coming this morning. I feel awfully sleepy. And if I am going to sleep, Solow is going to make his model sleep with me. I hate Mankiw for endorsing in such insanity and writing a book on Mr. Solow's model. Ok, now I am yawning. I still can't decide whether to stay up and murder Solow page by page, or listen to music and wake up, or go to sleep. :| Frustration. Why do you eat my head so? ;[
Okay. I will sleep.